Disarray

Another Face of Alzheimer’s

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Disarray (drawing for blog post)

Disarray (July 2020)

The disease has progressed a lot. That is what has happened and is why I haven’t been writing. This drawing is a visual representation of what it feels like now. I call it Disarray. Everything in the drawing is up in the air, and the connections between things are tenuous. I want people to know that for me Alzheimer’s has nothing to with forgetting who your children are, or the names of your grandchildren. You can be in the later stages and still remember their names. It is forgetting who you’ve been all your life. What makes you “you”. It is rapid aging and disintegration. It is the brain telling you that you are not here anymore. And yet you are here. It is confusion. It is panic when alone and not able to just get up, get dressed and start the day. It is an inability…

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Dementia and/or Alzheimer’s?

My beloved mother in law died from Alzheimer’s a week ago – the funeral is tomorrow. I feel it is important to keep telling the stories of our loved ones who suffer from this disease.

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Have you ever wondered if there is a difference between Alzheimer’s and Dementia? Does it even matter? Why should you care?

A few specialists say there are no distinctions and they utilize both Alzheimer’s and Dementia equally. Some specialists find there are a couple of contrasts yet say they all end up in the phase of Alzheimer’s so it doesn’t make a difference what it is called. In the two articles in Lifescript.com, and ALZ.org there are varying opinions.

Alzheimer’s sickness is the most widely recognized reason for extreme mental deterioration (dementia) in the elderly. It has been evaluated that 30% to half of the individuals more than 85 years of age experience the ill effects of this condition.

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Darkness and Light – A Reflection

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During these times of struggle… when science is ignored and selfishness reigns supreme it is hard to see the light. When the flames of hatred and fear are stoked and the flame of love is doused, we live in darkness. Yet as John’s Gospel tells us: “The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it.” (John 1:5)

Various translations of this passage say that the darkness has not understood it, comprehend it, extinguish it, or put it out. Light… there is a proverb that says it is better to light a single candle than to curse the darkness. Another says it is better to light a single candle than to stumble in the dark. The band Chicago sang this song which has always touched my heart: One Little Candle by Chicago

When I struggle during times of darkness, I need the reminder to walk towards the…

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Discovering Ourselves – A Reflection

Spirit is Calling

Are you listening?

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Tonight’s Waxing Moon over Estes Park, Colorado

As the church continues to wrestle with the COVID-19 pandemic and what church is going to look like in the future, I see a challenge being offered to us. We are in the midst of a time that offers the church an opportunity to dig deeper into our faith and communal life. We are also being invited to dig deeper into our own personal faith and life as Christ-followers.

Perhaps if we take the time to pause and look inward as individuals and as a community of faith, we might learn something. Perhaps we can discover an interior reality which can transform us. Perhaps in that stillness we can listen for the Spirit’s call. Be Still and Know is more than simply a phrase or verse of Scripture. It is a call to exploration. Thomas Merton’s words in a book we studied for…

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Love – A Reflection

Love love love love love …..

Love is love is love is love …..

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As I read Merton tonight and look back over the years of my life many thoughts go through my mind and my heart. These are indeed “interesting” times for Denise, for me, for our community, and for this nation and world. Sadly I too often see hatred, fear, greed, divisiveness, and ignorance taking over.

My Dad was talking about this last week. He lives in an Assisted Living facility in my hometown. Unfortunately he watches way too much television news and it gets him incredibly upset. Denise and I can totally relate to that. That is part of the reason that we limit our intake of news, no matter the channel or perspective. Too much can be toxic in so many ways. Whether he realized it or not, Dad quoted the Beatles when he was talking with someone at the front office. He said, all we need is love. That…

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Love and Identity – A Reflection

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A Rocky Mountain Sunset

As I reflect on this particular sunset in the Rockies and our five years of ministry here in Estes Park, I keep coming back to identity. One of the central challenges to the church (not just the congregation I am serving, but the larger church universal) is our identity. Some churches identify themselves by their buildings. Others identify themselves by specific programs. Others pride themselves by their past.

Just what is it that makes the church unique? Is it doctrine? No. Is it a particular style of worship? No. Is it their facility or program? No. What makes the church and individual congregations unique is their witness to the love, peace, mercy, and justice of God. How does the church relate not just to the power brokers, but to the folks who have no power? Jesus spent a lot of time teaching and preaching about the…

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Praying the Psalms by Thomas Merton

A must read 🙂

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Having actively prayed and studied the Psalms regularly for more than fifteen year, I have been meaning to read Merton’s small book for much of that time. For some reason, his work has taken a long time to work its way to the top of my reading list. This is odd because this book has been mentioned to me positively on a number of occasions.

Thomas Merton (1915–1968) was an American Cistercian. Unusually for a twentieth century monk he become a household name in the late 1940 to late 1960s. This fame was in part because he was a prolific writer—author of more than fifty books. His autobiography, Seven Story Mountain (1948), is said to have motivated many young Americans to turn to the monastic life. He was also a poet and social activist—his writings often reflected the latter. He was very active in dialogue with followers of Eastern religions…

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We are Equipped to Answer Our Call

Spirit is calling.

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As we set the Communion table for worship last Sunday I thought about the many ways in which God equips us to answer our call to serve as Christ-followers. Communion is one way that I find both comfort and the strength to do the Lord’s work.

You may ask: “What exactly is that calling?” The call of God to you is as unique as you are. As it says in Genesis 1:27 we were created in the image of God. This calling is also a part of our vocation. While you typically hear the term vocation applied to the religious “profession” I believe it applies to each one of us. Thomas Merton had this to say about vocation: A man knows when he has found his vocation when he stops thinking about how to live and begins to live. (Thoughts in Solitude, p. 99)

Our vocation comes alive when we…

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What Do You Live For – A Reflection

What warms YOUR Life? 🙂

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I came across this quote from Thomas Merton in a book that often brings me inspiration. Dialogues with Silence, edited by Jonathan Montaldo is a lovely combination of Merton’s drawings and selected prose and poetry. It truly stirs my soul.

The quote is from his book The Sign of Jonas: Let me rest in Your will and be silent. Then the light of Your joy will warm my life. Its fire will burn in my heart and shine for Your glory. This is what I live for. Amen, amen. (p.76)

So I leave Merton’s thoughts with you this evening, dear reader. What warms your life? What fire burns within your heart? Merton offers us comfort and challenge as we seek to serve.

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Breathing and Praying – A Reflection

Walk humbly 🙂

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A Colorado Bluebird in Hermit Park.

Tonight we were in Virtual Evening Prayer with a friend and mentor we haven’t yet met in person (Rev Thom Shuman). The focus of tonight’s time of prayer and reflection was on the Breath Prayer. The irony of the symbolism was not lost on me. I can’t breathe… I can’t breathe… I can’t breathe….

These were some of the last words of Eric Garner, Manuel Ellis, and George Floyd as they were brutally murdered by the very ones who swore to protect and to serve. As we practiced our breath prayer in Evening Prayer tonight, my heart and my mind went back to these men and their last minutes.

I can breathe… I can pray… I can walk the streets without fear… that is what it means to be a white male with privilege. I am not proud of that. I am actually ashamed…

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